Where I've Been

Sorry about not posting. I have been in the midst of a deep self-review and growth. It takes all my energy to interact with people at work and I just couldn't write. I think this is passing now, but anyway, I felt I owed an explanation. Actually, I've been very pleased with the process I've been through. Someone once told me that the universe will put all the right people into your path when you are ready to learn from them. That has happened to me, and in no small way these people have come into my life because of this blog. So I feel bad about not posting, I explain it this way: In every conversation, you pause for reaction, feedback, or interaction. I've been in the midst of contemplating the interactions. I haven't been able to write until I digested the information I've gotten.

I wonder if I would have gained as much from these people and experiences I have had over the past two months if they had happened earlier in my life? I know the answer is probably no. I do wish however, that I could have managed all this "growth" twenty years ago in my thirties, but there were no blogs! Oh, well. I'm glad it happened before I died. The funny thing is I feel younger than I have in a long time...kinda like I did in my best part of my thirties (my favorite decade, can you tell?). I think I look younger, but that's because I smile a lot. Some of the outcomes:

• The growth in my personal life, which I'll call a better comfort with myself, has (I think) made me more confident at work. I react differently to people and they are reacting differently to me. It wasn't sudden; it was gradual. I love the new relationships, which has made work a much more happy place for me. This has been happening since last August and starting this blog. Surprise? Not really. Most surveys show that people value their relationships and how they are treated at work over their salary.
• I am dealing with all of my problems in a much better way. I never fell apart or anything, I just worried all the time about something. Now, I refuse to let them take my joy. (Believe me, I still worry, but I'm much better at turning it off. It's amazing how much of our world we control from inside our own heads.
• Accept the lessons you learn from people and accept that people will come and go in your life. That has happened with Michele. She has moved on and I wish her well.

Jann

Comments

[Michele]

Well I may have moved on from writing here, but I hope I haven't moved on from your life!

I can relate to the learning experiences you're describing here, Jann, and how they come at particular points in our lives when we're most ready for them. Or at least they change us then because we're ready to learn from them.

I hope you start posting more again because I love reading your reflections. You're very honest and open about what goes on in your brain and I love getting a peek inside. Thanks for sharing with the rest of us!